Chapter 8 - Introducing Destiny

Chapter 8 - Introducing Destiny

March 11^th 2013

Kristen POV

Despite only deciding to throw a party the night before, with Rob, Nick and Ruth on it, everything was ready to go by late afternoon. Throughout all the commotion Destiny had once again slept through it. The cast had been invited all we could do now was wait. Something I wasn’t good at. Especially when it came to throwing parties, I wasn’t used to hosting them, let alone going to them. Trying my hardest not to get overwhelmed, I made my way into Destiny’s nursery, glancing into her crib as I saw her awake. Scooping her into my arms I laid her against the changing table, quickly freshening up her butt before snapping a new diaper in place, deciding to nurse now, then Rob could give her a bottle later on in the night. Settling down to nurse I once again calmed as she latched onto my breast. It wasn’t long before Rob found me.

“I wondered where you’d snuck off to.”

“Sorry, I needed to get my bearings, as much as I know everyone will be happy for us. This is the first time we’ll be passing her around people.”

“Is that the only reason your panicking?”

“I’m a little apprehensive on Nikki’s reaction.”

“Don’t worry baby. I’ll protect you both.”

“I love you.”

“Love you too.”

“How long until everyone gets here?”

“Not long, five minutes.”

“I’ll get changed after I’ve nursed her. There’s milk for her bottled for later.”

“Alright I’ll finish getting things ready.”

As Rob walked out of the nursery I settled myself in the rocker watching Destiny closely as she suckled greedily. I knew I’d feel content when Destiny was born, however I wasn’t expecting to feel the overwhelming need to stay at home. I’d always been so focused on the next movie, yet now all that mattered was Destiny’s happiness, if I was meant to do a movie I would. There had been a few offers come through that I wanted to look at, the main one being ‘Focus’, I still needed to show Rob the script. After swapping breasts, I noticed Destiny sticking her tongue out realising she was full. Resting her gently against my shoulder, my hand rested against her back as she burped gently nuzzling her head into my neck. Taking a deep breath I slowly moved toward the bedroom, laying Destiny in the basinet by the bed grabbing the clothes I’d decided to wear. A royal blue shirt and navy skirt. Five minutes later I was curled up on the couch holding a sleeping Destiny as the doorbell rang. Taking one last deep breath I managed to calm my nerves determined to enjoy myself. Unlike other events, it seemed everyone had decided to arrive at once. Nikki arriving with Paul. After everyone was sitting and had a drink in their hand, Rob sat next to me, wrapping his arm around us.

“As a few of you know, Kris fell pregnant during the summer, I’m sure you can all understand why we hid this fact, especially considering the nonsense which was being fed through the media. Two weeks ago Kristen went into labour and blessed me with a beautiful daughter. With that said I’d like you all to meet Destiny Faith Hope Pattinson.”

“She’s beautiful. Just like her mom.”

“Thank you. We’re preparing to reveal her to the fans; even if the media already printed her picture we took some of our own when we were in New York a few days ago.”

“I think that would be a good idea. How do you plan to release the picture?”

“We’re not sure yet. All the magazines we would have chosen said something bad about me over the summer, we had thought of asking Nick and Ruth to release our statement alongside the photograph.”

“That’s a good plan, I’m sure the media will have to earn your trust back.”

“Thanks Jackson, how’s Monroe.”

“He’s adorable. He’s with his mom.”

“I’m sorry we never said anything, I wanted to tell you but the way everything was I was scared to.”

“I understand. You know you can talk to me whenever you need to though.”

“I know. Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.”

“I have something to say.”

“Thought you might. Alright Nikki what do you have to say.”

“Actually it’s for Rob. How do you know the summer reports were false? You can’t know for sure.”

“That’s where you’re wrong. I know for a fact it’s false because we never left each other’s side, every time I was on stage alone, Kristen was backstage, the only event she didn’t attend was the VMAs because she had commitments in Toronto, just like I did when the Movie Awards were scheduled.”

“Nikki, you out of everyone here should know how much Rob means to me, he’s my life, when we are apart it physically hurts. You’ve watched us for the last 5 years and now you try to challenge my dedication to him. We all know the media make up bullshit about every single one of us on a daily basis. I’d rather die than be without him. We’re married for god’s sake.”

Slowly handing Destiny to Rob, I stood up making my way into the downstairs bathroom splashing water on my face as I tried hard not to burst into tears. I always knew there was something Nikki had been hiding despite the last 5 years working together. When she’d found Paul I’d been happy for her. I just wished she could be happy for me. Taking a deep breath I gripped hold of the basin wiping the stray tears away from my eyes as I heard the bathroom door open and Ashley standing opposite me. Smiling slight I tried to pull myself together. Today was about Destiny not petty arguments.

“No tears. Today is for you, Rob and Destiny no one else.”

“I’m sorry; the slightest thing sets me off these days.”

“It’s alright you don’t have to explain yourself to me.”

“Thanks Ashley, I honestly don’t know what I’d have done without you and Tay last year.”

“You never have to ask. Like Jackson said we’re here for you. I just think that it’s a shock for her.”

“Because she was married first?”

“Possibly. Feeling better now.”

“Mm. Do they think I’m stupid?”

“No, they think you’re a new mom with a lot to deal with.”

“That’s something I suppose.”

Taking one last deep breath I prepared myself to go back out into the living room. Ashley was right I’d been taking on too much, trying to be superwoman, when in truth I didn’t have to be. From now on things were going to change. By the time I walked back into the living room after Ashley, things seemed to have settled down again, everyone was talking quietly, discussing what movies they were going to be doing next. Curling up on the couch next to Rob I buried my head into his shoulder feeling extremely overwhelmed. His arm wrapped around me as I finally calmed myself down.

“Kristen I’m sorry.”

“I know why you asked I just wish you hadn’t.”

“I understand. I shouldn’t have brought it up.”

“Let’s just forget it and enjoy the night.”

“Sounds good to me.”

Thankfully after Nikki and I talked there were no more issues, I could tell everyone was having a good time and as I suspected Destiny was passed around everyone, easily welcomed into the Twilight family the same way Monroe had a few months beforehand. By the time she arrived back in my arms, I could tell she was due a feed. The look on everyone’s faces had me stifling a giggle, as if I’d breast feed in front of them. Before I could ask, Rob was already on his feet making his way toward the fridge, bringing a bottle back a few minutes later. Taking the bottle from Rob, I couldn’t keep the giggle in anymore as Destiny started to suckle on the teat greedily.

“What? Did you really think I would feed her in front of you all if I hadn’t already pumped milk?”

“Well you did have us worried there.”

“Tay really, you saw more of me in November when you came to see ‘On The Road’.

“Only joking. Now we’re on the subject of work though, any new movies coming up.”

“Rob has a few he’s signed up for and I’ve seen one that catches my eye. It starts filming in April.”

“How come you haven’t said yes yet?”

“Not just me to think of now.”

“Whatever you decide on you’ll be great in it.”

“Thanks.”

“Your welcome.”

The night seemed to fly by, just as conversation started to flow, I looked at the clock realising just how late it actually was. As I looked around the room I realised everyone else had realised this as they started to get ready to leave. Despite my small feeling of being overwhelmed the night had been a success, and definitely on to repeat in the future. Rob had just returned from putting Destiny to bed when everyone started to leave, as disappointed as I was that everyone had started to make tracks, I knew if we stayed up any longer then I definitely wouldn’t be awake when Destiny needed to nurse. After saying goodbye, it didn’t take long before the house was once again peaceful, Rob’s nose skimming along my jawline wishing we were able to be intimate again. Only 4 more weeks. We could wait. Ten minutes later, we were in bed and cuddled against each other. This was where I belonged, in the arms of my husband with our child in the next room. Everything else could wait.

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Revealing Destiny To The Fans

March 12^th 2013

Rob POV

After celebrating Destiny’s birth with our friends, I could tell it had definitely put a lot of fears to bed for Kristen; the next big test came later today when we finally released our press statement on Destiny’s arrival. It hadn’t been the original plan however after we’d talked to Nick around 6am whilst Kristen had nursed Destiny, it sounded like the better idea. At least this way we would be revealing the news ourselves. I’d been awake for just over an hour when I heard small cries coming from the nursery, making my way slowly toward the crib I scooped Destiny into my arms laying her against the changing table, pulling off the soiled diaper, cleaning her butt before putting a new diaper in its place. After getting her dressed I held her close to my shoulder, smiling as she snuggled into my neck.

“So cute.”

“How long have you been waiting there?”

“Not long. She’s definitely a daddy’s girl.”

“She’s sleepy.”

“I know the feeling but if we’re going to get there on time we need to leave now.”

“You ready for this?”

“As I’ll ever be.”

“Come on then, I have everything packed for Destiny. I thought maybe we could go to lunch after.”

“Sounds good to me.”

Ten minutes later we were in the car alongside Nick, Ruth and Dean. JB had unfortunately been unavailable to attend. I could tell by her body language the closer we got to the hotel where we would be releasing the statement, the more fidgety Kristen became. However I also knew that she was looking forward to finally being able to give our fans some good news. The journey seemed shorter than it had done in the past. Taking a deep breath, I prepared myself to face the cameras. I was used to being in front of the cameras, but it was a whole other story when it came to our daughter. All too soon the car came to a stop, the nerves vanished as I looked into Kristen’s eyes, and for once she was giving me strength. Sliding out of the car, I made my way around to Kristen’s side, helping her out, of course the press were waiting, but this time we’d come prepared covering Destiny’s face with a blanket. Twenty minutes later we were in the main conference room getting ready to show our daughter to the world. Thankfully the media invited had come from morning TV stations. I was brought out of my thoughts by Nick and Ruth telling us it was time.

“Thank you all for coming here today, I’m sure you’re all intrigued as to why you’ve been called here today. My name is Nick and I’m sure you all know I manage Rob Pattinson and Ruth is Kristen’s publicist, the news they have to share with you is extremely close to their hearts and I alongside them ask that you take that into consideration before asking questions. They also ask that you not bring up anything to cause them distress.  With that said I’d like to welcome to the mic Robert and Kristen Pattinson.”

Taking the blanket from Kristen’s shoulder I smiled at our daughter as her blue eyes, my eyes stared back at me, the innocence making me even more protective than I already felt. The nerves which had disappeared became visible again, once again Kristen noticed my feelings, touching my body with her hip, instantly calming my nerves as she leaned her head against my shoulder, I knew this was her way of asking me for support. Wrapping my arm around Kristen’s shoulder, as we walked out to the waiting media, flashbulbs instantly going off as Destiny covered her sensitive eyes with her hands. Pushing aside my protective instincts I led Kristen in front of the microphones keeping my arm securely around my angels.

“As Nick said we have wonderful news to share with our fans, they’ve supported us throughout everything over the last 5 years; it’s time for us to give back by introducing the newest member of our family. Of course the paparazzi once again took the choice away from us, however this is one part of our lives that we refused to let them win on. So I’d like to introduce to you and our fans our daughter Destiny Faith Hope Pattinson born on March 1^st 2013.”

“Why did it take you so long to reveal this? Surely it would have been easier to just announce the pregnancy when you first found out.”

“At any other period we would have, however the amount of lies being said about Kristen at the time, both of us felt safer not saying anything. My first priority is and always will be my wife and daughter. Meeting Kristen showed me what it feels like to find your soul mate, there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for her. For them.”

“Will you be giving up any of your movie roles now you’re a father? Kristen will you give up acting?”

“Yes I will be dropping one movie, as discussed with the director and Nick, there is no way at this time I can be a part of Mission Blacklist, and my family come first.”

“And in answer to your question about my giving up acting, no I won’t be. Destiny will come with me when I find the perfect role and it will more than likely be when Rob isn’t filming. Or can be close by.”

Kristen rested her head against my shoulder again, and I knew she was tired, by Destiny’s fists in her mouth I knew she needed to nurse. Glancing over at Nick, I nodded as he walked back over to the mic as I moved back a little, making sure the photographers could still see us. The time had come for us to release the picture we’d picked out from the candids Sienna and Tom had taken of us. I’d already told Nick we would appear on the condition Destiny wasn’t in front of the cameras for long, therefore the photograph we chose would still be released to the waiting press. Nick took his place in front of the mic again preparing for the next part of the revelation.

“Rob and Kristen have shown you their beautiful daughter, however I’m sure you can all understand that right now they don’t want her to be in front of the cameras too much, she’s only just two weeks old. That being said, I’m releasing a photograph that was taken whilst they were visiting friends in New York, until they decide otherwise, this will be the only official photograph you’re going to get.”

Finally we were able to leave the glare of the cameras. Dean led us toward a free hotel room where Kristen could nurse before we met up with Kristen’s parents for lunch. The minute the door closed, I helped Kristen undo her shirt and bra smiling as Destiny latched on straight away. She was getting so quick at finding her food. Crouching down I rubbed Kristen’s thigh taking a deep breath as my touch calmed her instantly. Five minutes later we were back in the car on our way toward Le Rustic Inn to meet up with Jules and John. Now the fans were going to find out about Destiny I was even more protective than I was already, however that being said I knew the majority of the fans were going to be happy for us. They’d been speculating about this since the summer of last year. Thankfully I’d been able to hide the real reason we were going to lunch, I knew how much Kristen wanted a big wedding, and I was determined to make that dream come true. Declaring our love in front of our friends and family would be the biggest thing we would ever do. Renewing our vows wasn’t my only surprise for Kristen. Our daughter’s christening was my first surprise. Kristen would get the surprise of her life and I knew she’d love it. She mightn’t say it a lot, yet I knew when she was relieved something had been taken out of her hands. My sweet angel.

Chapter 7 - Returning To L.A.

Chapter 7 - Returning To L.A.

March 10^th 2013

Kristen POV

Once again we were up early, however this time it wasn’t because Destiny needed to nurse, although she would need to nurse before we flew home. Rubbing the sleep from my eyes, I stroked Destiny’s cheek hoping she would stay asleep long enough for Rob and me to pack. Suddenly I was thankful we hadn’t taken everything with us to England. Five minutes later we had everything packed and ready to go. Taking a deep breath I checked on Destiny smiling as she stared back at me, her fist in her mouth. Gently scooping her into my arms unclasping the front of my nursing bra curling up on the bed as she started to nurse. I was brought out of my thoughts by Rob’s hand against my cheek. Gazing into his eyes I saw them shining.

“I thought it would be best to nurse before we left then she could sleep on the plane.”

“Sounds like a good idea to me. You seem more at ease.”

“I came to a decision yesterday when we were on the beach.”

“What did you decide?”

“That unless the role really caught my eye I’m going to be a stay at home mom. I don’t like the idea of someone else taking care of her while we work, even if it is our family.”

“This is what you truly want?”

“Yes. It also gives us a chance to be a family; we can come with you instead of having to stay behind.”

“Now I definitely like that idea.”

“Me to. How soon do we need to leave?”

“Once she’s done nursing. The sooner we leave, the quicker we get home and avoid the paparazzi.”

“She’s almost done.”

“How can you tell?”

“She’s slowing down in her suckling. She’s falling asleep.”

“Want me to take her while you get showered?”

“Mm I wish I could have a bath.”

“I know you do sweetheart, only a few more weeks to wait.”

“Feels so long away.”

“It’ll fly by I promise.”

“Alright I believe you.”

Laying Destiny in Rob’s arms, I grabbed the fresh towel I’d laid out the previous night heading for the shower undressing quickly, stepping into the warm water sighing in contentment as the hot water relaxed my aching muscles. I didn’t think I’d be as excited to move back to LA after Destiny’s birth, however now I’d made the decision not to return to work unless the role I’d been sent was something I felt really passionate about, the fear had completely disappeared. Once I’d finished showering I dried quickly pulling my damp hair into a messy bun, walking slowly into the bedroom slipping on my shoes I practically raced downstairs coming to a stop at the bottom as I watched Rob pack the SUV. I noticed Destiny was already asleep in her car seat. Grabbing the rest of the luggage I slid it into the trunk of the car wrapping my arms around Rob’s waist nuzzling into his back.

“Hey that was quick.”

“I’m eager to get home. I didn’t realise how much until I’d made the decision not to work unless it was necessary.”

“I’ve noticed you’ve been more relaxed.”

“It’s been the last weight off my mind. You and Destiny come first.”

“I love you.”

“Love you too. Are we ready to go?”

“We are, hop in.”

As I slid into the passenger side I slipped the photographs out of my hand luggage smiling at the finished result. The media may have revealed Destiny’s arrival before us, however the image we would release and the statement were the true revelation. They think by taking this choice from us they have won, yet all they have achieved is us assuring we tell our fans the news our way and make it even more personal. Slipping one of the smaller images out of the set I slid it into my purse slotting it into the picture section with pure pride on my face no doubt. Resting my head back against the head rest I placed everything back into the carry-on luggage opening the window slightly. I knew Rob was concerned by my actions, yet I didn’t want him to worry even though I felt sick to my stomach.

Suddenly I realised why, the restaurant we went to after the beach last night, the food I ordered had unsettled my stomach. I knew it couldn’t be the chef because no one else felt this way. Looking into Rob’s concerned eyes I smiled slightly. As we pulled up at JFK airport I knew I couldn’t hide how unwell I was feeling as I slid out of the car gently holding Destiny to my chest. Rob’s hand laid against my shoulder his eyes looking into mine.

“You feeling okay you’ve been really quiet?”

“My stomach is upset.”

“The restaurant last night?”

“Mm, it’s all I can think of because you, Tom and Sienna are fine.”

“Why didn’t you say something?”

“I thought it would pass.”

“But it’s not?”

“No.”

“Come on let’s get you home. Want me to hold Destiny?”

“Mm, I’m thinking I should pump milk if I still feel like this in a few days.”

“That sounds like a good idea.”

Laying Destiny in Rob’s arms, I automatically wrapped my arms around my stomach as we entered the plane. Suddenly I was thankful we had decided to get a private jet, knowing that they came with normal bathrooms and comfortable beds. Curling up on the sofa I rested my head against the back of it closing my eyes as I tried in vain to keep my breakfast down. I knew Rob was worried about me, especially because there wasn’t anything he was able to do in order to take away my discomfort. Just as I’d relaxed and come to terms with my breakfast staying firmly in place the plane took off, jostling my body. Covering my mouth quickly I made a dash for the bathroom bending over the basin as I emptied my stomach contents. Resting my head against the cool porcelain I saw Rob standing by the door, his forehead creased into a frown.

“I’ll be okay. Just a touch of food poisoning. I’m suddenly glad we never took a commercial flight.”

“Feeling a little better?”

“Not really. My stomach is hurting.”

“I brought you some water.”

“Thank you.”

“Your welcome.”

“I’m sorry.”

“What are you sorry for?”

“Spoiling the journey home.”

“Babe you can’t help feeling sick.”

“The food last night didn’t agree with me or I’ve got that stomach virus that’s been going around.”

“From the symptoms you’ve just described I’d say you’ve caught the stomach flu.”

“Great. Just--. Oh god.”

Leaning over the basin I emptied the contents of my stomach again curling my body around the basin closing the lid as I flushed it resting my flushed cheeks against the toilet lid, taking small breaths out as I sipped the water trying to get the vile taste out of my mouth. Once I was sure I wasn’t going to throw up again I stood up slowly rinsing my mouth out before heading back out to the living area of the plane curling up on the couch again, completely drained. Now I knew I would have to pump milk because I didn’t want to risk Destiny’s health whilst I wasn’t feeling well. I was brought out of my thoughts by Rob’s arm around me as I rested my head against his lap as Destiny slept in her basinet at his side. His palm made its way up my back as I tried to relax enough to sleep, although with my stomach churning I knew it was impossibility.

“We’ll be home soon.”

“I’m hungry but I know it’s pointless eating.”

“It’s probably best you don’t.”

“How long have you been feeling like this before you said anything.”

“Just since this morning. I was fine last night.”

“If you still feel like this tomorrow we’ll call the doctor.”

“Alright.”

Rob POV

I knew there was something wrong with Kristen the minute we pulled up at the airport, she’s never quiet and I noticed she was paler than usual. Once she explained to me that she wasn’t feeling very well everything clicked into place, the minute we got on the plane I knew she was trying to hold herself together, unfortunately the minute the plane took off she dashed toward the bathroom. Gently placing Destiny into the bassinet I raced after her just as she lost her breakfast. She looked as fragile as she wrapped herself around the basin. I hated seeing her in any type of pain, especially when there was very little I could do to stop it, I only hoped it was one of those 24 hour bugs and nothing serious like the flu.

After another bout of vomiting I helped her back to the couch in the living area, sitting next to her smiling as she rested her head against my lap I knew she was feeling exhausted yet unable to sleep, I rested my hand against her back hoping it would bring her some comfort. Her arms were wrapped around her stomach her face scrunched up in pain. Suddenly I was thankful we would be landing soon. I was brought out of my thoughts by the plane’s pilot announcing we were about to land, closely followed by Kristen dashing into the bathroom again with me close behind.

“Babe what can I do?”

“I’m not sure there’s nothing you can do.”

“The movement makes it worse?”

“Mm.” 

“We’re nearly home.”

“Thank god. How’s Destiny?”

“She’s sleeping.”

“That’s good. Oh not again.”

Resting my hand against her back again I rubbed it gently hoping it would help relieve some of her discomfort. Despite her mad dash to the bathroom, Kristen didn’t get sick again, something I knew she was thankful for, I guessed landing wasn’t as turbulent on her stomach than taking off was. Once we were on the ground, I helped her to her feet, waiting as she rinsed her mouth out again. Ten minutes later we were in the car on our way home. Just the three of us. From here on out, we were on our own. Of course our families would always be on hand if we needed them, however Destiny was our child and our responsibility. My family.

Kristen POV

By the time we arrived at the house, I was starting to feel less nauseated, however I still wasn’t going to tempt fate and eat just yet. As the car pulled up to the house I was suddenly relieved to be back in LA, as much as I love to stay with Tom and Sienna this was our sanctuary. Once Rob had placed our luggage into the house, I followed him holding Destiny close to my body, wrinkling my nose as I realised she needed changing. Walking upstairs, I headed into the nursery laying her tiny body against the changing table as I proceeded to change her diaper. Just as I was placing the fresh diaper on I heard the door open, smiling I turned slightly seeing Rob standing in the doorway.

“Hey you, how’s Bear and Bernie settling back in?”

“They’re outside I thought it would help if they got their energy out before you came back down with Destiny. I could have changed her.”

“I know but I wanted to.”

“How are you feeling?”

“Better, still queasy but not as nauseous as I was.”

“That’s good. Do you think you can handle something to eat?”

“Mm some soup would be nice.”

“One bowl of soup coming up.”

“Rob, are you sure you’re okay with pulling out of Mission Blacklist?”

“I’m sure, like you said, our family comes first, and I’d rather be here than have you worry about me.”

“I just wanted to make sure. I don’t want you to regret anything.”

“I could never regret choosing you and our daughter over a movie. There will be other movies.”

“It’s good to be home. The UK is home also but this is different.”

“I know what you mean.”

“I’ll be down in a minute.”

“Alright.”

Watching Rob leave to make my lunch I scooped Destiny into my arms sitting in the rocker pulling my top off, dumping it on the floor at my feet, unclasping my bra. Surprisingly I didn’t need to guide her toward my breast within minutes of me removing my bra; she was latched on suckling greedily. In my heart I knew she wasn’t due to be nursed for another hour, however I needed the comfort. I didn’t realise how long I’d been nursing until Rob appeared at my side again running his hands through my hair.

“She’s asleep.”

“Can you lay her in the crib?”

“Of course I can. What happened?”

“I panicked about being home. Nursing her calmed me down.”

“You know I’m not going anywhere right?”

“Mm, I had time to think whilst she nursed. I realised I was just being silly. I really am happy to be home. This is where we belong.”

“This will always be our home wherever we travel.”

“I was thinking, only Jackson and Taylor know about Destiny, my bump was pretty small, why don’t we invite everyone over and have a welcoming party.”

“I like that idea.”

“I thought you would.”

Standing slowly, I laid Destiny in Ron’s arms smiling as I watched him gently lay her into her crib. Seeing her sleeping there looked right. This was home, as much as we loved England this was where we needed to be. However I was determined to make sure we visited England a lot more than we had done prior to my pregnancy. As I watched Destiny sleep, I rested my head against Rob’s chest as we left the room, leaving our baby girl to sleep. Taking a deep breath, I looked around the house as we walked downstairs sitting at the dining room table as Rob brought out my lunch, thankfully after nursing any queasiness I’d been feeling had all but vanished. I guess my nerves got the best of me. As I looked into Rob’s eyes I saw my future, Destiny may only be a few weeks old, however I knew we would have more children when she was older. I definitely wanted to give Rob the son he’s always wished for. With that decision made, I set about planning the party, first thing on the agenda was to call everyone and invite them. This would be the first time wed all been together since the LA Premiere and I couldn’t think of a better reason to get together than introducing our child to them, I only hoped everything went without any issues. The last thing I wanted was for the paparazzi to invade our privacy again. Yet something told me as long as Rob was around, the paparazzi didn’t stand a chance of capturing pictures of Destiny and I, Papa Bear was on full alert. Our protector. My life. My husband.

Chapter 6 - Shopping With Sienna

Chapter 6 - Shopping With Sienna

March 9^th 2013

Kristen POV

It didn’t take long for us to reach the stores, it wasn’t until I was actually out, spending time with Sienna and it not be in between filming a movie or promoting one, for once it was just about spending time for myself, something that neither Rob nor I had a lot of time to do. By the time we’d reached the stores, Destiny was fast asleep in her stroller, she wouldn’t need feeding for another two hours, After browsing through the stores for a while I noticed some t shirts and shorts I liked the look of deciding just to go for it and buy them, I wasn’t sure exactly where I’d wear them, but I did know I couldn’t hide in hoody’s forever. After paying for the clothes I made my way back toward Sienna and Marlowe reaching into the stroller stroking Destiny’s cheek gently before placing the purchases underneath the stroller.

“You seem a lot more relaxed now.”

“I am I think I was just overthinking everything. The talk with Tom really helped.”

“I thought it would when he told me what the conversation had been about.”

“It all feels a little stupid now.”

“It’s not stupid, Kris it’s understandable after everything they’ve put you and Rob through.”

“They tried to break us but all they did was make us stronger. I’ve got a question.”

“Go ahead.”

“When did you start pumping milk for Tom to feed Marlowe?”

“Around the first six weeks.”

“That’s what I was thinking. I know Rob understands that I need to feed her, I just don’t want him to miss out on any bonding.”

“I was the same with Tom. Whenever you feel most comfortable that’s when you should do it.”

“Thank you.”

“What for?”

“Giving advice. Letting us stay. This is the most free I’ve felt since July last year.”

“I’m glad that you guys came. Tom really missed you.”

“I’m scared of going back to LA but at the same time I want to.”

“The best thing to do is just focus on being home, and whatever happens will happen you can’t control everything.”

“You sound like Rob. Nick is releasing a statement about Destiny’s birth but something tells me it’s too late and everyone already knows.”

“Would that be a bad thing?”

“No, it’s just one more thing they’ve taken away from us.”

“Don’t show them that they get to you.”

“I promise I’ll try.”

“Good, now let’s shop some more and we can get to the beach.”

“I like that plan.”

With my mind at ease once again, we headed toward Bloomingdales, it wasn’t often I managed to actually shop for myself and it was definitely something I was looking forward to. By the time we arrived, I’d forgotten about my worries and in its place was a bubble of energy, managing to find everything I was looking for alongside, adorable baby clothes for Destiny. About an hour after we’d been inside, I heard a commotion behind me, that’s when I knew the statement Nick would release was not needed. Turning slowly, I sighed noticing a bunch of fans following behind us. As I looked at them carefully, I noticed they didn’t seem like the type of fans who wanted Rob for themselves. Setting the brake on the stroller I stroked Destiny’s cheek gently as she slept giving the fans my entire focus.

“Hello, you know you don’t have to follow me, if you want an autograph you only have to ask.”

“We…we read about the baby in the paper and wanted to say congratulations. We just didn’t want to disturb you.”

“Thank you. Her name is Destiny, she was born on March 1^st. would you like that autograph?”

“Yes please.”

“Come closer then, I can’t leave her alone.”

Once the fans had moved closer to Sienna and myself, I took their paper signing my autograph and a small message to them saying thank you for their support. Now they would know just how much their support means to me, how much confidence it gives me. With Twilight ended and Rob doing movies whilst I was on maternity leave I was slightly worried that the fans would react badly, yet just as they had done at the premieres they proved me wrong and were as supportive if not more than they always had been. Handing them back their autograph books, I slipped the sharpy back into my pocket smiling.

“An official statement will be released within the next few days about Destiny’s arrival. Could you not say anything until then?”

“Of course we can. It’s your decision when she’s revealed not ours. Can you say hello to Rob for us?”

“I’ll make sure it’s the first thing I do when we meet up later.”

“Thank you.”

“Your welcome.”

As I watched the fans leave, I suddenly felt more confident than I had done in a long time. Taking the brake off Destiny’s stroller I made my way to the checkout desk paying for my purchases making my way back to Sienna in record time. I noticed she’d also found some clothes alongside baby clothes for Marlowe. Once she’s paid for her purchases we made our way out of Bloomingdales heading back toward the house. Twenty minutes later, we walked up the driveway, laughing as Rob and Tom came to bring the bags inside. Typical males but you had to love them. Lifting Destiny from her stroller I moved into the living room pulling the blanket over my breasts, smiling as Destiny latched on starting to suckle. I was brought out of my thoughts by Rob kissing my lips gently.

“Did you have fun?”

“Mm, I had a good talk with Sienna about when to start pumping milk, I’ve decided after I get the all clear from Dr Mason.”

“Sounds like a plan to me. What else did you do?”

“Shopped a lot. I got some normal clothes for when I feel comfortable enough to wear shorts and T shirts again. We also met some fans, they asked me to say hello to you. It appears that the media have informed our fans that Destiny arrived but I still want to release the statement officially.”

“I asked Nick to come round after we’re back in LA.”

“I like the sound of that. Sienna and I were talking about heading to the beach to take the photographs of us. The sun is starting to appear, only if you want to that is.”

“I’d love to. When?”

“Once I’ve finished nursing.”

“Sounds good to me.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

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The Beach

Rob POV

Seeing Kristen smile always made my heart skip a beat, she took my breath away; at first I was nervous about her shopping trip with Sienna; however it appeared to have been the best thing for her. As she nursed Destiny, I brought the shopping purchases upstairs into our bedroom during our short stay. After getting showered and changed I made my way back downstairs where Kristen was burping Destiny. Pulling my IPhone out of my pocket, I took a picture smiling as Destiny moved her head to shield herself from the flash. Just as I was putting my IPhone away, Kristen look over at me giving me the most shit eating grin I’ve ever seen from her. In that moment I knew everything was in its rightful place. Walking the short distance toward my wife and daughter, taking her gently from Kristen’s arms as she left to get changed. Taking a deep breath, I paced the floor holding Destiny against my shoulder rocking her gently as she started to fuss. I was brought out of my thoughts by Tom’s hand on my shoulder I could tell he was laughing.

“What’s funny?”

“Nothing, it’s just you were made to be a father. It’s in your DNA.”

“How can you tell that?”

“By the way you are with Kristen, you’re more gentle, more so than before. Not to mention the way you are with Destiny.”

“I didn’t think I could love Kris more than I already do, but when I look in Destiny’s eyes, knowing how hard Kristen worked to bring her into the world, my love for her has multiplied tenfold.”

“I know the feeling. Are you looking forward to taking these photographs?”

“I am.”

“Kristen seems to be in a brighter mood.”

“She is, I think talking to Sienna put her mind at ease.”

“That’s good.”     

“Mm, should we get the kids in the car, and then we just need to wait on the girls.”

“That sounds like a good idea.”

During our conversation, Destiny had settled down against my shoulder and was now sleeping peacefully. Grabbing her diaper bag on the way out, I gently laid her in her car seat making sure the clips were secure, placing the paci in her mouth smiling as she suckled on it as she slept. Gently closing the car door, I followed Tom back inside just as Kristen and Sienna were coming downstairs dressed in Bikini tops and shorts. Suddenly I wished Kristen and I were able to do something other than touching. Taking a deep breath I managed to reign in my emotions just in time as Kristen walked over to me resting her hand against my thigh.

“You’re a minx do you know that?”

“Mm you’ve never mentioned that one before, I take it you like my bikini and shorts.”

“You look gorgeous. Extremely sexy.”

“Glad you like it. Let’s go.”

“Your wish, my command.”

Wrapping my arms around Kristen’s waist, I walked outside leading her to the back seat as we slid into the car, suddenly I was thankful that Tom had an SUV rather than a four door car, we were able to be near Destiny even though we couldn’t be right next to her. As Kristen rested her head against my shoulder I knew she was relaxed, whatever had happened on the shopping trip had definitely worked. Taking hold of her hand, I gave it a small squeeze as Tom started to drive toward the beach. This was our last big outing before moving back to LA and I had to say I was suddenly looking forward to being home, as much as I love England, LA is now home for both of us, not just because Kristen’s family live close by.

Kristen POV

Twenty minutes later we arrived at the beach, it didn’t take a genius to realise that we weren’t only there for the family photographs, Rob and I needed the relaxation before we headed home. Even if we did get a private jet home, there was no guarantee that the paparazzi wouldn’t be waiting for us; however unlike earlier today I was determined not to let them affect my mood. The media would always want a piece of Rob and I, we’ve come to accept that. Taking Destiny from her car seat I held her against my chest as Rob grabbed the blankets and sun cream. Once we were all ready, we made our way toward the beach, I noticed there were a few people here but I couldn’t find it in myself to care, we may be famous but we didn’t want to be treated differently. Despite our relaxed attitude, I could feel Rob’s arm around us, papa bear had made reappearance. Once we were on the sand, it didn’t take us long to find a spot, after placing the blankets on the soft sand, Rob helped me sit as I held Destiny closer to my chest as she slept. As relaxed as I was, the minute Rob sat next to me I instantly calmed right down.

“Should we get these pictures taken?”

“That’s why we’re here. Take as many as you like, we can send some out to friends and family.”

“Sounds good to me.”

“I had a feeling you’d say that.”

“Oh you did huh.”

“Mm, just like I anticipated the look on your face when you saw me in this bikini top.”

“Minx.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too sweetheart.”

Resting my head against Rob’s shoulder I rested Destiny against my right arm as she looked up at me, I smiled seeing her awake again, her beautiful blue eyes staring back at me with wonder. Just at that moment, I heard the camera clicking, looking up from Destiny as I smiled at Sienna and Tom as each began taking photographs of us. Slowly I laid Destiny in Rob’s arms, so all the photographs were not just of me holding our precious angel. Once again Sienna and Tom started to snap away, I could tell from the corner of my eye people were staring but I couldn’t care less, we were nowhere near anyone, we weren’t harming anyone. I was brought out of my thoughts by Rob positioning Destiny in front of us as he lay against the sand resting his head on his right hand, following suit I lay on my left side resting my head against my left arm as yet again, photographs were taken. After another twenty minutes Sienna put the cameras back into her handbag as I scooped Destiny into my arms holding her close again.

“Babe are you okay?”

“Mm, those people over there have just been staring at us a lot. They’re making me feel slightly uncomfortable.”

“Would you like me to have a word with them?”

“No let’s just enjoy ourselves. We have a long journey tomorrow.”

“Alright.”

Taking a deep breath, I managed to calm myself down enough to enjoy the remainder of our time on the beach, the saying time flies when you’re having fun was definitely evident. After two hours of fun filled laughter and relaxation, it was time for us to leave the beach. Our baby girl was sleeping soundly and I had to admit I was feeling exhausted myself. I’d been so content within my surroundings I hadn’t even realised Rob bring the stroller down. Standing slowly, I laid her into the stroller covering her small frame with her baby blanket. As we made our way back to the car, I came to the realisation that I didn’t always have to be working to feel like I was successful. These last few days had proven to me that not only was I able to travel with a newborn, I was also able to interact with the fans and not feel threatened. That knowledge alone had made me more carefree and open. I’d also come to an important decision, unless it was a role I felt drawn to I was quite happy being a stay at home mom. Movies were not my main priority anymore. Destiny and Rob’s happiness were. Their happiness would now and always be my main and only priority, no matter what was thrown our way I’d make it my mission in life to not let anyone no matter who they were hurt my family.